I swear err one at school (omfg school) today wanna act like they have sticks up their buns. lol. Only like, two people i greeted me with love and excitement. the rest wanna act cool n stuff and made me feel sad. LOL.
You can feel how ever the fuck you want to feel about me. My feelings won’t change. I’m not “back and forth” you fucked me once what makes me think you won’t do it again? Intentional or not, everyone is two faced. ahah,
i’m so young. too young. ppl say not to grow up and not to move too fast. i felt like i’ve done that, and back around again. however i’m still in reverse. doing the fun stuff at a different age. i guess if that makes any sense. o:
BAALLLSSSS UP. MOTHAFAWKA BALLS UP. NOTHING IS GOING TO GET DONE AROUND HERE UNTIL YOU STEP UP AND HANDLE IT. IT’S SELF EXPLANATORY, IF IT’S NOT GETTING TO YOU THERE THEN MAYBE YOU’RE JUST NOT READY AND YOU SHOULDN’T HAVE BEEN IN THAT SITUATION IN THE FIRST PLACE. simple. C: handle it yourself. you need to understand that others are not here to solve your own problems.
“The (500) Days of Summer attitude of “He wants you so bad” seems attractive to some women and men, especially younger ones, but I would encourage anyone who has a crush on my character to watch it again and examine how selfish he is. He develops a mildly delusional obsession over a girl onto whom he projects all these fantasies. He thinks she’ll give his life meaning because he doesn’t care about much else going on in his life. A lot of boys and girls think their lives will have meaning if they find a partner who wants nothing else in life but them. That’s not healthy. That’s falling in love with the idea of a person, not the actual person.”—Joseph Gordon-Levitt (via patlam)
Going back to school today kinda opened my eyes. I planned on going back this year with a different mindset, a lot more motivated and in more control. But stepping foot in the building made me want to just go back home and reevaluate all my previous plans. The school year hasn’t even started and i’m already having trouble. i’m thinking too much, vibes are hella off, and the way some other situations and relationships are going i feel the need to take myself away from everything. I was feeling so well and confident but now i feel like i need to be isolated all over again. My focus is off and honestly, i wasn’t feeling like that 12+ hours ago.
Things aren’t going to get easier, they continue to get harder. Thats what they all say. Who knew that me in a comfort zone now, is going to be washed all away. i feel like i’ll take the same toll as i did in the past…. but what’s the point of a repeat? Something different obviously has to be done
Fuck that shit. I’m not going to let anything walk over me again.