I’m in a bad mood right now and if she was here her mood would reflect off of mine. She’s a young little thing, but she knows the deal. Sometimes when im like furious, she gets a little scared and she just sits away. but once i’m sitting here lost, she’ll come by me and just sit there…. i dunno .. i just, kinda need her here with all my fucked up thoughts situations and frustrations. people aren’t always in the same slot as a doggy poo…. def. not the same role…
If I sleep too much, my parents complain. If I don’t get enough sleep, my parents complain. If I eat too much, my parents complain. If I don’t eat enough, my parents complain. If I’m always in my room, my parents complain. If I go out too much, my parents complain
you see some weird stuff… not to mention black girls with nothing that try to wear skimpy dresses, high waisted shorts, or long long dresses. And when it doesn’t look good on you ? OR YA LOOK FAT ?! Sometimes i wanna just walk up to you n bee like, why’d you walk out of the house.
I feel as if i talk about them all the time. But really, i can’t help it. they make me feel like i’m wanted in a group and i haven’t really had that. Along with my girls i hang with that are like, a sister group to us ? Their cool too….. i just don’t talk to them like i do with my boys… ^_^
CHRISSY, ALVIN. HUY, LUIS. Luis is a new edition, but like, i’ve been with him to long to not include. BUT, these guys have my back and danielle’s. We’re the girls of the group but ya’know, sometimes we gotta be protected. All the boys have a little bad side to them, meaning they’ll kick ass for us even if they’re handling more than they think.
Last night, Some kid threw a football at luis, alvin and me. We were outside in the complex and luis thought the football hit me. So he sprung up and hauled ass up the stairs. The kid ran so we kinda didn’t let it bother us. After we kinda let the situation soak in, we were all kinda pissed so we fuckin ran after kid. He ran too but then i found him and started charging. He ran away then we looked for him er whatever and eventually found him with a group of people. 2 big as nigguhs. lol in my mind i was like shit LETS GO OVER THERE. Then they were like nah lets just go home. So we continued walking er whatever and then, short ass little ass kid started to run torward us ! So shit, we started running home ! I mean chaaarrrging like get yo as home or we gonna die ! Luis thought he saw something shiny in his hand er whatever thinking the worse like he had a gun, i was like what the fuck and my initial thought was just getting home. i didn’t think we were gonna make it, but we did and were dying when we got in the house. That was a crazy ass experience even though we ran and didn’t follow through with what we were gonna do ? , We still had eachother’s back. Like, that was some crazy ass shit but in my mind, i didn’t want them to get hurt so i kinda stayed back. I had luis take my key and he gave it to alvin. I watched out and had the mind set of taking a bullet for them if i needed to. BUT, that didn’t happen and we just went home and talked about what we would’ve done if this situation got out of hand.
Those are friends. Not those bull shit friends that are gonna leave your ass and go. Like you’re on your own and thats all and you deal with that not me.. Like, they stuck through that shit with me. We decided everything together and quick enough to get back safely. That was like, a big ass trust moment with a big ass rush. My boys are the coolest mo fuckas in the world. LMAO. That was crazy but i liked it… lol
I hung out with my FANCY alll day today :D For those of you that don’t know, a fancy is someone you are fond of, but aren’t sure if you 100 percent into that person yet… BUT OH I KNOW, i am into him… SO, MY FANCY, shall be his code name [: MY FANCY is who i hung out with allll day today. We chilled at extravaganza, and set it off right away. i feel as if i’ve created a personal accomplishment of gaining his number. i’ve known this kid long enough, but now it’s to the point where i’ll actually talk to him and get to truly know him on that”level” . He was in my phone guies . i think that’s far enough… <3 i feel like an accomplished bishh and i’m liking it. … TO FUCKING BAD, my phone’s off and i can’t talk to him… ]’: SADDFACE…. BUT, i’ll see him tuesday and hopefully that’ll be well. I’m gonna miss him man and hopefully i’ll see him next year at KERR.
I believe that i will miss all my friends next year… i’ll probably make multiple letters to my fantastic friends and i guess the not so fantastic if that’s possible… i love you guys and i can already see that next year is going to be hell without you… EXPECT A LETTER MMKAAYY ?!
we were all bored. Then everyone left, I decided to just tumblr, and then I was like LETS MAKE YOU A TUMBLR HONEYZ. *fills in sign up* *stops on url* “WHAT AM I DOING” /STOPS tofu: “i know wat r u doin”