just because we haven't talked in a while doesn't mean you gotta be a bitch to me.
i know your true intentions bro. quit being an asshole. i was there for you, and kept it real when no one else did. and even during that little bit of time. too old for that shit. quit being immature man.
you start off, being all sweet to me, walking with me in the hallway, putting your hand in mine, all that. [: long hugs, FLIRTING. i like that shit. lol . it must have been my fault though. Did i turn you down ???? I didn’t want to.. i was just questioning. I was being bothered by outside emotions and intrusions. i didn’t want you to stop. You didn’t come back for me. Sooo, since you play games with me, i play too….. ten times harder. i just want clear answers. not bullshit. it fucking sucks. this happens everytime. i don’t think i fell hard, i was just a little surprised. I started getting used to it and was okay with it… i guess stopping you once unintentionally set you down. Then when we were together, you were cool. and then you left me. then i heard things. it hurt. i wanna ask questions but that’ll make it weird. i just hate mixed feelings.
Okay but yeahhhhh i met Dumbfoundead yesterday and was hella nervous n excited . The day started off like CRAP cause i was at the lockin the previous night, came home, and instead of getting ready, i crashed for like, 5 hours instead of 15 minutes :3 I was like reeeeally sad when i thought i wasn’t going to be able to go. more angry though. but i went to work with mom n stuff finding out dumb was going to be on later and mom didn’t really have to work that day :DSince that was the case i was like prancing around n just chillin n what not till it was time to go.
Once we got in the car i had like my own dumbfoundead concert lolol . At the same time i was like, introducing my mom to something new. c: Once we got downtown n stuff, i like, ran over to discovery green bro. Danielle and my people were sitting front and center. not to mention, all my bros were backstage volunteering :3 And of course, my mom kept talking shit like “make sure they call you so you go up there n get a picture n do this n that.” no nigga… it don’t work like that… lololol i would love for it to but that’s not the case… ANYWAYS. we were watching Hue perform, and the J U came out and caught my moms attention. i started dying laughing. And there was a mini embarrassing moment with some food that wasn’t mine….. BUT NOT TO MUCH ON THAT YO. OMG AAANNNDDDD, when i got to like, the seating area, i saw Alex on stage !!! i wanted to see him dance but missed it ]’: lolol it’s okay…. i’ll see later. ha.
NOW FOR THE GOODS. Dumb came out and i swear my bitch ass almost cried…. but i sucked it up like a pro and put my hands in the air, sang along, threw up the west n had a great time :D lololol i was pretty excited too tho. OH MY GOSH MY MOM. She was like singing too cause she started getting some of the words as i was playing the songs in the car, And when dumb was singing (rapping, performing, whatever :}) Bubba Kush and Vacation song, anything that had to do with smoking, she was yelling, and groovin and “yeahh”ing and all kindsa stuff. lmfao SO EMBARRASSING. BUT HELLA FUNNY. dude, thats my mom for you… Even when i went to go get his autograph, and take pictures, after she told me like, “Why were you acting like that ?! So shyyyyy, I toootally could’ve embarrassed you n been like, ‘Duuude, my daughter like loves youuu, like you don’t even knowwww, she talks about you all the time, and shhe’s from the west tooo, ’ ” LOL ONLY MY MOM.
Yeah i kinda agree with her though. When i went to get my picture taken n stuff i didn’t really make eye contact or actually communicate. ]’: sad face… I REALLY WANTED TO THOUGH. i was just hella nervous and BASKING IN HIS PRESENCE. LOLOOLOLOLOL. He was reallllll chhhiilllll though. I would want to meet him again and actually say something ya’know ???
i swear that whole day i was just like OH MA GASH IM GOING TO MEET DUMBFOUNDEAD TODAY. at the end of the day i was just like, OH MA GASH MAN I MET DUMBFOUNDEAD TODAY. LOL
Lol, and introducing my mom to some youtube greatness was pretty cool too, haha :3
Thursday - July, 7th 2011 [Freeverse] x Illmillion
it seems like everybody and they mama hate me all the things i’ve been hearing alot lately hope it’s a dream but i kinda forgot i’m crazy and i know i talk crazy ‘bout the things that shouldn’t phase me how would you react if you knew the people who said it? people who were close but would leave you in a second thought they were hope until you see through their reflections they’re the same reasons why i don’t know what a friend is i leave myself no other choice but to end it to think i even tried to avoid every mention think i hold grudges? well think again i just don’t talk to whom i used to think were friends i’ve learned many things when i was quite young but i still don’t know when i should bite tongue if i find out anyways then why front? i’ll have my thoughts already typed up ready to read? ‘cause there’s plenty to see my life’s full of fake friends with plenty deceit there was never such thing as lowkey never such thing as homies, i’m the only one who kept it og i’ve never had anybody pick sides but they play favorites, i didn’t get why now i’m ‘bout doing everything to get mines ‘cause everything always gets better with time i got that first name, last name complex that really puts things out of context i’m not really going off yet but i’ma let em know that i got next
I really despise girls who are sluts that can still pull off being a fake, innocent girl that everyone loves. Sometimes I think that I’m the only one who can see the “real” them. Everyone else is blinded.